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BE A FIRST RATE VERSION OF YOURSELF, NOT A SECOND RATE VERSION OF SOMEONE ELSE. - Judy Garland
Casey James Devlin
January 1, 1988
Writer/Actor
Homosexual/Engaged
PB: Chris Colfer
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| the ninth |
[16 Apr 2012|04:11pm] |
I'm not one to climb up on a soap box ever. I like to keep a positive attitude about everything and I don't really get to involved with things that are very political or controversial in a public forum. I've been accused of not caring, of being shallow and narcissistic. Anyone who knows me knows I don't give a shit about what other people think of me but in reality I do care. I just choose to keep my opinions to myself because that's what I was groomed to do. I grew up on a soap opera and I was always told that fans don't really care about what you care about in real life, they only care about your character and your fake life. Anyway, that is all besides the point.
A friend emailed me a news article about another teenager that killed themselves because they were bullied and they couldn't take it anymore. There was a video attached to the article because someone had made a tribute video to the boy. Against my better judgement I watched it and was crying within thirty seconds. Seriously, I can't take this. I can't stand that kids are killing themselves over something that is such a small part of their lives. I understand that when you are a teenager everything is so overwhelming and huge that when you're getting made fun of it feels like the end of the world. I can say that I was lucky enough to not get bullied for being gay when I was in high school. I went to a performing arts high school when I wasn't filming and I mostly got crap for thinking I was better than everyone, which at the time, was the truth. I did think that because I was a snob and ridiculous. I know how lucky I was because if I'd gone to public school like my brother, who know what would've happened to me. Thing is, high school is such a small time in our lives but it seems to impact us the most.
My heart breaks for the bullies and the victims. Those kids being horrible to other kids are most likely getting bullied at home and/or are also ignorant. No one deserves to get picked on for who they fall in love with and so many of these bullies are mirroring stupid behavior and it makes want to shake them and tell them to wake up. I also wish I could take the victims and look into their eyes and tell them that this is such a tiny moment in their lives that the best revenge they could do would be to live and have amazing lives and fall in love and fuck the people who don't like it. It's possible I'm just naive but my heart breaks every single time I hear that a teenager has killed themselves. I don't know what is happening to us as a society but I really want to do something to change even a small portion of what is going on. A few months ago Tyler and I attended Trevor Project Live in LA and I felt the same way. There was s tribute to a beautiful boy who killed himself and I was overwhelmed with the urge to do something. It's time to stop talking about it and figure out something to do.
I swear I don't rant like this all the time. I'm just overwhelmed this evening.
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| the eighth - late valentine's day wishes |
[15 Feb 2012|02:19pm] |
I hope everyone had a fabulous Valentine's Day! Mine included dinner which I helped make (I stirred things, that counts!) and alone time with the most important person in the world. So tell me, how was your Valentine's Day, successful or disastrous?
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| the seventh |
[23 Jan 2012|02:27pm] |
I have to say, I've never been one to care about what people think of me. I can be a handful and a little bit obnoxious at times. I also have a habit of saying what's on my mind and telling the truth whether or not I think someone is going to have their feelings hurt. As I see it, I think people appreciate it when they actually hear the truth. They may not like it when you first say it but down the line they normally think 'oh yeah, so and so was right'. Of course I have had a lot of people stick their noses in place and give their opinions when things aren't their business or they don't know the whole story. I guess it's true what they say, opinions are like assholes - everyone's got one. My thing is I never regret my choices because everything that you choose to do leads you to exactly where you are today. There is a lesson in everything that we do and every situation that we encounter. I have not made the best decisions in my life and I'm the first to admit that but if I hadn't done what I did or stayed when I shouldn't have then I wouldn't be where I am today and where I am is really amazing.
I'm happy, I'm loved and in love and I have some amazing friends and family that are so supportive and can't even believe it. I'm taking a step in a different direction, I'm putting myself out there for the first time and it's a little unsettling for me. When I learned that Port Jefferson was getting cancelled I thought well I'll get another role on another soap. I remember telling my agent to find something for me and I thought I was being proactive, making sure I was taken care of when the time came but really I was kind of terrified. My show had been my comfort zone since I was 7 and at 23 that zone was going away so why not just find another one. Did I really want to do the same thing because I was scared to figure out something else? Don't get me wrong, I love acting and I loved my show but part of me was itching for something different. Moving here was definitely different but it worked out better than I ever imagined. Now I'm taking that next step and branching out creatively.
They always say if you don't like something change it. If you want to see something, make it happen. For months now I've been writing a story that evolved into a script. It's loosely based on things I have experienced in my life. I have producers interested in turning it into a television show and I have to say that I'm experiencing emotions that I've never experienced before. I've never worked on something so revealing and put it out there for others to see. I suppose now I can say that in one part of my life I do care what others think of me and of my work. There is a distinct difference between working on daytime television and transitioning to nighttime television. There's more riding on what you're doing, more people to impress, completely different rules to work with. I am getting ahead of myself because as it stands we are just in the spit balling stage of everything. We have a script that now can be fine tuned and then it's back to the producers and those willing to back the funding for this venture to see if it's worth trying to film a pilot. I've been told by what is written so far there should be no problem with that but still, anything can happen. Of course if we do get to that stage then the ball really will be rolling.
I have to say 2012 is shaping up to be a pretty exciting year.
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| the sixth - musical interlude |
[16 Jan 2012|02:48pm] |
Forever can never be long enough for me
To feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now we won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do
Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
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| the fifth - A Little Christmas Query |
[16 Dec 2011|11:50am] |
I'm deciding that today is the beginning of my Christmas holidays. Tyler and I are in NYC visiting my Nana Sophie and also attending his mother's Christmas party which I'm looking forward to because that lady can throw a party! Anyway, with the parties and the shopping and the wishing for lots and lots of snow I was curious what everyone's holiday traditions were?
In my family on Christmas Eve my Mom buys everyone a new set of pajamas to wear that night. We get all cozy and order chinese food and watch all our favorite Christmas movies. Mine happen to be White Christmas and It's A Wonderful Life along with the stop-animation specials like Rudolph, A Year Without A Santa Clause, and Santa Clause Is Comin' To Town. Those were always a favorite of mine.
I want to know what all of you do around this time. Also, who else hasn't started Christmas shopping cause I haven't.
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| the fourth |
[07 Dec 2011|08:04pm] |
As much as I love to travel it's always so nice to come home. I miss my puppies and I miss my bed and I miss not living out of a suitcase. There's something about being in your own space but my lifestyle tends to take me all over the place. If I'm not taking off somewhere for business then I'm getting away for pleasure. Last week a trip away was essential for mental health. I highly recommend the Keys for some relaxation if you're looking for it.
From the Keys, Tyler and I headed to LA for the Trevor Project Live event. His mother, the amazing woman that she is, bought a table at the event so there was no way that we were missing that. The event was full of amazing performances and stories about brave people. It was a little overwhelming because several people came up to me to thank me for my character on Port Jefferson. I played Cameron Reid for most of my life and I was the one that went to my producers and said I wanted Cam to be gay and he needed to come out. I mostly did it for myself to have a storyline that meant something to me but I never imagined they would let me work with the writers to actually write it. I actually was pretty sure they'd just laugh at me and tell me to keep dreaming. All my life I've never been in the closet so I really wanted to go through that process with Cameron. He was such a goodie goodie that I wanted something else for him and they actually let me do it. As weird as it is I forget that Cameron and what he went through on the show helped a lot of people. It always surprises me when people come up and tell me that because of Cameron they came out or were able to talk to their son/daughter/grandchild about them being gay. I don't know if I'll ever wrap my mind around something like that and then to be at such a huge event like Trevor Live and have that happen... it was just unreal. The whole night was amazing and I want to do more things for the Trevor Project. I'm very fortunate to have never felt the need to hide who I was to my family or my friends. They always accepted me but as my Mom says I've always been a force to be reckoned with. I don't think I could hide if I really wanted to.
I have two weeks home before we're off again. It's back to New York for family things for the holidays. I promised to spend time with my Nana Sophie before Christmas since we're spending Christmas with my Mom and Grandma. Nana Sophie is a pretty amazing woman and she never demands much of my time. She understands how busy I can get but I feel badly for the many months I let go by between visits. Not that she's in her big Upper West Side apartment all lonely. Nana Sophie is such a socialite and has things she's always doing but I know she likes when I visit. Now if I can only get my brother Ben to visit her that would be golden but that's a whole story for another day. I am looking forward to Christmas. I've talked Tyler into coming home with me so it will be a pretty enjoyable time even if I haven't really started my Christmas shopping. I love to shop but I'm such a procrastinator come holiday time. It's so easy to shop for myself, everyone else is difficult. I guess I should get on it.
Now if it would only snow up there...
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| the third - I'm early but whatever, this is funny and so true! |
[21 Nov 2011|06:17pm] |
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!
This is me at any meal someone is preparing. I pretty much can't cook for shit but this year since I'm not going home and Tyler's not going home he's going to be brave and try to teach me to make something for Thanksgiving. It's possible I will burn our house down. We could end up homeless because I burn the cranberry sauce or something.
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